What God's Will is for Me.

I know I have posted a blog similar to this in week's past about the idea of this journey of adoption being all about glorifying God.  It has nothing to do with us being good people, doing good things, having big hearts, etc.  This journey is all about obeying God and doing what He commands. 

Something else I know I have been a victim of saying is "I wish I knew what God's will for my life is..."  Honestly, I don't know how many times in my spiritual walk I've said that.  And honestly, I don't know how many times I've heard that from other people as we discuss the Holy Spirit's calling on our hearts to adopt Blake.  As I have grown spiritually in the past year or so, I've realized that for me, saying "I wish I knew God's will for my life" was a crutch.  It was my lazy way of avoiding the idea of God calling me to do something I didn't want to do.  It was my lack of spiritual depth and understanding of Scripture.  It was my lack of understanding of God's character and the way He uses the Holy Spirit to work in the lives of others.  And to summarize all of those statements, it was pretty much based out of fear.  Which is the root of most of my hesitancy.

But not any longer.

God's will for my life is so clear cut, so defined, and so perfect.  His will for my life lines up directly with how He created me to be.  If you spend any time in the Scripture you will realize all the answers are all there, as I recently have.  I am not called to sit around and wait on the will of God to slap me in the face...I am to according to God's will and He will work out the rest.  Like the song we all grew up singing in Sunday School..."trust and obey, there's no other way."  Specifically, I am called to make disciples of all nations, preaching the gospel to the lost.  That is the baseline foundation of God's will for me.  It should effect everything I do.  I am ultimately responsible for the lost people in this world to hear about the gospel of Christ before they die.  Am I taking this one, single, clear-cut command, seriously?  Before adopting, I probably would have said "yeah, but I can't move to a remote village in Africa..."  My answer now would be "Yes, I can.  I just might be called to do that."  Once I learned to get over myself, I realized that God's will is perfect for me, and that my sole responsibility on this earth is to glorify Him and bring others to Christ, there should be no questions. 

Trust me on this one.

I never, ever, in a million years thought I'd be halfway across the world, away from my children, adopting a child with Down Syndrome.  Never, ever.  I never ever thought I would have a child born here, planned just for me.  I never ever thought I would grow to love this country because of my son being born here.  I never ever thought I'd enjoy being here.  Never, ever. 

But God did.

And trust me being within God's will is the best place to live. 

By far.

Otherwise I'd have missed this opportunity to be his mama and to see this!